On my way home...

Where is home, exactly?
Home is an internal state of being. It's a space that I get to keep clear inside myself which allows me to channel the appropriate energy in any given moment. It allows me to love myself and my body. Its the feeling of being comfortable and relaxed no matter the external circumstance.
I may already BE home. This is something I'm exploring as I make my way between Nicaragua and Guatemala.
Over the past two months, Inanitah has been such a harbor of love and safety and peace for me.
I left this morning on the 11 a.m bus. I won't recount the past few days too much except to say that I have discovered something in myself that is new and bursting forth to be seen. It is the desire to explore conflict resolution or peace making as a profession. If anyone knows anything about this, please write to me. I have intentions of taking a training in NVC (non-violent communication) this September. www.nvc.org.
Anyway, I have been traveling, bus/car/boat/bus to Managua and now am in a mall across from the King Quality station, where I will get on the bus to leave at 2:30 a.m. I have been at the mall since about 4:30 p.m and it's now 7:30. I have had chinese food, coffee, and ice cream, all for the first time in 2 months. I have bought a book for the bus ride, Carolyn Myss' Sacred Contracts, a pen to journal on the bus ride, and spent an hour or so on the internet so far.
There is a movie ciniplex here, so I will go see the last movie of the night, which begins at 8:30 p.m. I think it's something about your mama and it's a comedy. Yes, I will probably eat popcorn too. It's a very strange thing to be here. A bit of culture shock. I feel very dirty as I have been living in a tent w/o shoes or mirrors for months now. It was very odd to see my reflection as I rode the escalator up to the top floor. Now I remember what I look like! I'm kinda cute.
I am going to leave here around 10 o'clock and go across the street to the King Quality station and wait outside on their porch until 1 a.m when they let people in to wait for the bus. It's kinda odd, I know, but I really couldn't bring myself to spend the $40 on a room and taxi when I was only going to be there for a few hours and I'm much more entertained in the mall here.
Anyway, the point I was trying to make earlier is that I'm feeling at peace still. I think I've carried some of the Inanitah magic with me! AND, my spanish is soooo much better! It's incredible to be able to create whole, fluid sentences that result in a meaningful exchange of some sort with another human being here. Wow! Satisfaction at last.
I am on my way to Guatemala to meet up w. my friend Dara in Antigua. Looking forward to feeling it there. Have heard lots of yummy goodness about Lake Atitlan!
More on the other side of the 2 day journey by bus. We stop in San Salvador for a night. Hopefully I will find a place w/ wifi and be able to post again about the trip. I'm feeling very curious.
xoxo
V